Being a first responder and healthcare professional is a high-stakes, high-pressure job. It requires not just physical strength but also emotional resilience, mental clarity, and the ability to stay focused in life-or-death situations. As someone who is both a first responder and in recovery, managing these two aspects of my life is a delicate balancing act. I’m often asked, “How do you do it?” How do I navigate the chaos of a first responder’s day while also staying grounded in my recovery process? Here’s a behind-the-scenes look at what it really takes.
The Early Start: Grounding Myself for the Day
The first step in any day for me, whether I’m on shift or not, is grounding myself. Mindfulness is a core practice that sets the tone for everything that follows. The minute I wake up, I take a few minutes to breathe deeply and check in with myself. I ask, “How am I feeling today?” It’s easy to rush through life, but being in recovery has taught me the importance of being present.
I start with a brief meditation, which helps clear my mind and allows me to step into the day with intention. It’s amazing how just five minutes of stillness can reset my energy and outlook. I’m reminded of the Alcoholics Anonymous saying, “One day at a time.” This has become my mantra; no matter what the day holds, I can handle it if I stay present and take it one moment at a time.
Staying Physically and Mentally Strong
Being physically active is a critical part of my routine. As a first responder, I need to be in top shape to meet the physical demands of the job, but regular exercise does more than just build strength—it’s a major part of my emotional and mental well-being. Whether it’s a run, yoga, or some strength training, I prioritize movement in my daily schedule.
While on shift, I prioritize ergonomic movement. Any time I am engaging my muscles, even while sitting, I try to ensure that I am engaging my core, centering the weight I’m carrying- large or small, and lifting in proper form. Between calls or in the break room at the hospital, I do some simple stretches that keep me connected to my body, and that help to build awareness of where I may need some attention or strength training.
Along with physical fitness, proper nutrition plays a key role in both my recovery and my ability to handle the physical stress of the job. I’ve learned that fueling my body with whole, nutritious foods gives me the energy and mental clarity needed to perform well. I also take mental health medications as prescribed, ensuring that I’m supported emotionally.
Something I’ve added to my regimen is LifeVantage Protandim. This supplement helps target oxidative stress, something that can accumulate from the intense demands of my job and recovery process. Protandim supports my cellular health and overall vitality, which is essential for handling both the physical and emotional stress of being a first responder in recovery.
Facing the Emotional Challenges of the Job
The emotional toll of being a first responder can be overwhelming. We face situations that most people can’t even imagine—helping in life-threatening emergencies, being with people on their worst days, and witnessing suffering. There’s also the added weight of responding to calls where you can’t save someone, or dealing with a tragedy that lingers long after the call has ended.
One of the ways I manage the emotional challenges of the job is through journaling. Writing allows me to process what’s happening in my mind and heart. It’s a safe space where I can release the emotions I may not always be able to express in the moment. Journaling is part of my ongoing emotional self-care and helps me clear out the mental clutter.
I also rely heavily on my recovery community. When I found a non-judgmental group of individuals who understood what I was going through, it was life-changing. We’ve built a community that is rooted in service, support, and understanding. In recovery, we say, “We are only as sick as our secrets,” and being open and vulnerable with others in recovery has been critical for me to stay grounded.
Counseling has also been a cornerstone of my long-term recovery and resilience, both on and off the job. The confidentiality protected by HIPAA means I can openly discuss the challenges I face in my role as a first responder and healthcare professional without the fear of breaching professional or personal boundaries. Knowing that I have a safe, non-judgmental space to air my thoughts and process my emotions has been invaluable. My counselor offers an unbiased perspective, helping me gain clarity, hear different viewpoints, and develop healthier coping mechanisms for life’s challenges. This support has been instrumental in maintaining my mental and emotional well-being through the ups and downs of both my career and recovery.
The Power of Unity, Service, and Recovery
There’s a deep connection between service and recovery. I serve my community as a first responder, but I also serve within my recovery network. It’s not just about what I can do for others on a call; it’s also about how I can show up for my fellow recovering individuals. The saying, “You can’t keep what you have unless you give it away,” is a reminder that the more I serve others, the more I strengthen my own recovery.
The unity within the recovery community is powerful. I’ve found that by sharing my experiences, struggles, and victories, I not only help others, but I also help myself. It’s a reminder that no one walks this path alone.
Finding and Relying on a Higher Power
In my journey of recovery, one of the most significant changes I made was acknowledging the importance of a Higher Power. In our line of work, we are trained to handle everything ourselves, to be the ones who always have the answers. But in recovery, I learned that I don’t have to go through this alone. I’ve found peace in surrendering to a Higher Power—whether that’s God, the universe, or whatever spiritual force you believe in. It’s an act of trust, letting go of the need to control everything and instead having faith that I am supported, no matter what happens.
The connection to a Higher Power is crucial, especially on days when things feel out of my control. I remind myself of the AA quote: “Faith without works is dead.” Trusting in my Higher Power doesn’t mean I sit back and do nothing—it means I stay proactive in my recovery while also trusting that I am being guided in the right direction.
Life-Changing Books That Shaped My Journey
Reading has been a transformative practice in my recovery. Some books have helped me understand myself better and have given me the tools I need to continue growing.
Eckhart Tolle’s “The Power of Now” was a game-changer. It taught me the importance of being present and how to detach from the mental chatter that often drives us to act impulsively. Understanding that “the present moment is all we have” has been a cornerstone of my recovery. It has taught me to let go of past regrets and future fears, focusing instead on living fully in the now.
Another influential book was Russell Brand’s “Recovery: Freedom from Our Addictions”. His insights on addiction, recovery, and spiritual awakening resonated deeply with me. Brand’s humor and brutal honesty made me feel understood and gave me hope that recovery was not just possible, but something worth living for.
An End-of-Day Routine: Reflecting and Recharging
When the workday ends, my job doesn’t stop affecting me immediately. I’ve learned that it’s essential to have an end-of-day routine to help me decompress, reflect, and transition from the intensity of my shifts back to myself and my recovery.
I begin by debriefing with myself—whether through a short prayer, meditation, or journaling. This is my time to process the events of the day, express any emotions that might still be lingering, and clear my mind before I rest. Journaling, in particular, helps me unload the weight of the day, reminding myself of what I’ve accomplished and what I still need to release.
I also make it a point to connect with my friends and family, even if it’s just through a series of texts or instant messages. Reaching out to them reminds me that I’m not alone and that they love and support me. It’s a simple yet powerful way to stay grounded in the relationships that matter most. Sometimes, I’ll share something about my day, other times it’s just a reminder of how much I care and look forward to seeing them again soon.
A vital part of my evening is taking time to express gratitude. I do this either mentally or in my journal, listing the things I’m thankful for—whether it’s the support of my loved ones, the strength I’ve found within myself, or the simple gift of being able to serve others. Gratitude keeps me humble and reminds me that I have much to be thankful for, even on tough days.
To help me fully unwind, I indulge in a comfort ritual, which usually involves a warm cup of tea. On some nights, it’s kava or chamomile, both of which soothe my mind and body. On others, I opt for a cup of hot cocoa with lots of marshmallows, depending on my mood. It’s a little moment of warmth and peace before I settle into bed.
Afterward, I shower to unwind my body, soothing any aching muscles from a physically demanding day. It’s also a way to wash off the grime of the day, both literally and metaphorically, clearing myself from whatever dirt, bodily fluids, or emotional weight the shift may have brought.
Finally, before I go to sleep, I take a moment to thank my Higher Power for the gift of another day—another opportunity to be of service to others. I express my gratitude for getting through the day, for the strength to face whatever challenges arose, and for the chance to rest and recharge for tomorrow.
Tips for First Responders Balancing Work and Recovery
If you’re a first responder or healthcare professional in recovery, or anyone juggling work and recovery, here are some tips that might help:
- Start your day with intention: Whether it’s meditation, prayer, or journaling, set a positive tone for your day. Grounding yourself first thing will help you navigate the chaos of the job.
- Prioritize your physical and mental health: Regular exercise, healthy food, and taking your medications are essential for keeping your mind and body in good shape.
- Leverage your support network: Build relationships with others who understand your journey. Recovery doesn’t have to be a solo path. Lean on others, and offer your support in return.
- Embrace service: Whether it’s through your work as a first responder or within your recovery community, service is a powerful way to stay connected and strengthen your own recovery.
- Trust in a Higher Power: Let go of the need to control everything. Trust that you are supported and guided, no matter what challenges you face.
Final Thoughts
A day in the life of a first responder and healthcare professional in recovery isn’t easy, but it’s worth it. It requires strength, dedication, and a deep commitment to both the job and the recovery process. Through mindfulness, community support, and a connection to a Higher Power, I’ve learned to manage the challenges that come with my profession and stay grounded in my recovery. It’s not about perfection—it’s about progress, one day at a time. And that’s what keeps me moving forward.
Mind Over Mayday 
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